Intro

Well, I have decided to journal about something that has already been a huge change for me. God is working in my life ever so clearly and I wanted to share, and see for myself, exactly what he's doing from day-to-day. I have been doing what I love for many years now: teaching. I was laid off from teaching by man, but given a challenge by God. I prayed and prayed, and argued, for God's will as far as going back to work. He made it VERY clear when I said to Him one day, "Lord, if I am meant to stay home and be with the kids, lay me off with an actual notice!" I didn't know at the time that He had already determined I was getting one. Then, to be more clear (as if God needed it), I told the Lord, "And let my husband think it a wise decision as well." WOW! So the hubby comes home from work and says, "If you get laid off, I don't think you should go back to work." Okay! God does give such clarity! I was ready and excited to make the change not knowing that my heart would feel torn and confused at the same time. As school is about to resume, I am feeling this uncertainty again. Have I made the wrong decision? What will happen now? Will I be a good enough mom and wife?

God is already saying, "Be still and know that I am God...."
Psalm 46:10